Maturity starts to feel like a goals nowadays
2022 was hell of ride. i spending so much time for growing older and wiser. eventhough i have to face so many things that i have never seen before. i called it "maturity process" i realized that sometimes, getting older doesn't means that i should know everything and capable to do many things. it's okay if you haven't figure it out yet, just keep processing. Also, it's completely normal that sometimes, life can be so terrifyingly insane. And if all that you can do it's just breathing and surviving, it's okay, everything's gonna be fine. So much happenned in 2022, everyday is getting worse and worse and my turning point was 'laying in my bed and playing space song by beach house at 2 AM' era and thinking that i wasn't good enough for anyone especially myself. I just thinking that "Am i become the person that i wanted?", "Am i enough?" Although, being good enough means i have to work much harder than before. i h